Originally published Thursday, 21 March 2019.
There have been more days than I can count where I lay in bed struggling to get up again. Heavy sobs fluctuated with numbness. The blankets that covered me a metaphor for the way I felt covered and hidden from a world that moved on without me.
Somewhere inside, I wanted something different. I wanted to
Passions in my heart lay buried deep. God-given pursuits withered
Would I ever live free? Could I, someday, live with confidence like other people do?
The energized me I once knew faded into the background of someone else's life.
While depression, anxiety, and signs of PTSD loomed, something else burned deeper still. Dreams surfaced time and time again, the ones that revealed a different
Those dreams hadn't
In those darkest of moments I nearly let go of them altogether.
But when you make yourself available to the work of God in your soul, something compels you to take one more step. And then another. And another.
That something is
It's the powerful presence of the Holy Spirit nudging you towards God. Prompting steps that nourish dry places and cultivate life again.
And it's a good thing. Let it go, dear one.
When God takes you through
When what you've relied on no longer works and it's scary to step in a different direction, do it anyway.
God is faithful in leading us towards emotional healing and spiritual growth.
Choosing Redemptive Pain for Healing
Difficult emotions are difficult for a reason. But working through them brings healing to wounds and broken paths that destroy the soul.
The pain of healing is a different
Redemptive pain settles an anxious heart and experiences more of God.
What Journey Will You Take?
We might live day to day with a dull ache that doesn't go away. We may sense something is missing
Even though we might complain about the pain, injustice, and hurts we experience, we'll stay stuck in life and limited in our experience of an amazing God until we're willing to do something different.
Do you want something different? Are you ready to know more than you know now?
I don't mean knowledge that fills the
If you're on that journey now, or ready to take one
May your courage continue to rise as God provides.
Weeping That Brings Relief
I won't tell you it's easy. But I will passionately smile and look you in the eyes (if I could) and tell you, it's so, so worth it dear one.
Those nights I screamed into my pillow from pain that cut deep, I thought I'd give up. I've acted and reacted in ways unbecoming, all while becoming something new.
Do you know this verse?
.weeping may last through the night but joy comes with the morning." ~ Psalm 30:5 NLT
I felt it more than once. Not immediately. Not the full impact over one night. But, the way this process brings a dramatic shift to the state of your soul.
Tears can bring so much healing when they'
When God addressed areas of idolatry in my heart, when He didn't allow the thing I wanted most, when I had to face my deepest fears and trust God was near, it hurt. A lot.
The crazy thing is that each time the pain intensified while my spirit wrestled with God, it ended with a choice to trust Him
With self surrendered to the Savior, soul relief eventually follows.
Through the process God has revealed
God Has A Unique Plan for You
He has a plan for your healing and growth too. I don't know what it is, or how it will play out, but I know it's there for you.
When you feel bound and
Will you make space for emotional healing so you can experience the unleashing of your soul?
In this recent podcast episode, I chatted with my friend Jenni Eastin about emotional healing, inner transformation, God's unique paths for each of us, and rising
I hope it encourages you wherever you are today.
CULTIVATELIFE: What's one step you can take today, or one you've taken recently?
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