There was a peace about how He spoke to me that day. There was a confidence that the words were for me. The peace and confidence embraced me as the Holy Spirit convicted, rebuked, and called me to repent. I bowed my head one last time and asked Jesus what He would give me in exchange for the sin I laid down at the cross. This was a new concept for me, to recognize God will always give us something in exchange for handing over our sins at the cross, specifically (James 1:17).
As I sat, waiting, the silence broke: “your voice.”
When I spoke what I heard out loud, Bonni asked me, “Do you sing?”
I sat stunned, and a bit fearful, but I answered, “yes; but I haven’t sang in years.”
I bowed my head in prayer, once again, and willingly asked Him if I should sing and if so, what? He said, “yes, ‘You are My Redeemer.”
As I opened my eyes and told the women what I heard, Charlyn gasped. She looked at me and said, “that’s crazy! That’s the exact song I heard as I prayed!”
Standing in front of those four ladies, I closed my eyes, turned my Spotify to Nicole Mullen’s “Redeemer,” and sang. Every passing note built more confidence, peace, and boldness. The lyrics broke through the trenches of my weary, warn heart and the Holy Spirit’s gentle hands embraced me.
Philippians 4:7 and James 1:6-8 both testify to the principle of a witness of the Holy Spirit. God’s peace is different than the world’s peace. His peace isn’t found in positive thinking, the absence of conflict, or in our feelings. It can only come from knowing that God is in control, our citizenship in His kingdom is sure, and our destiny is set. We have victory over sin when we allow God’s peace to guard our hearts against doubt, anxiety, and the worries that come with our jobs, homes, school, and other daily responsibilities.
James gives us the antidote to doubt and our inability to be stable in the midst of the storm. He calls us to “believe and not doubt.” He commands us to put away our critical spirit and expect when we pray God will hear and He will answer.
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