After four years of carrying two mortgages due to a crash in the housing market, my husband and I felt hope when the market began to take a turn. We were certain it was God’s timing to finally take this burden from us. Though the market had turned, it wasn’t enough. I fought to keep my faith alive and trust that God was still working, but I became disillusioned. There were times when I questioned whether or not he heard my pleas or cared about the stress we going through.
“The last five minutes before the breakthrough are always the hardest.”
I held onto this quote for months after I heard it at a Bible study about prayer. While the author referred to intercessory prayers on behalf of family and loved ones, the sentiment applied to any area of prayer life. When believers are waiting for answers, and God seems silent, the most difficult time is often right before his provision comes. But what if it doesn’t? What if the struggle and the suffering continues, but there’s no delivery in sight?
During one of the most trying seasons of my life, I pushed toward what I thought was that last five minute period. The period before deliverance. The period before the miracle. My hands were open, and I stood in anticipation of what God would do. But those five minutes passed, and more trials came.
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