I Can't Handle Change

Originally published Wednesday, 24 July 2013.

Fact: I am a creature of serious habit. I can't handle change! When eating out I pick the same thing from the menu every time. (Why risk picking something that might disappoint when I know a good thing?!) When I grocery shop, I take the same route every time. (efficient!) When I work out, the routine drives my motivation. I have even worn the same eyeliner brand for years now. Change throws me off my game big time.

Today I sent my 5 year old son off to his first day of Kindergarten. I hid my tears behind my oversized sunglasses and put on a brave face as I walked him into his class. We had our "I will miss you"  boo-hoo session the day before so he got it out of his system early. I, on the other hand, was a weepy mess. Part of me weeped because my little guy is growing up. Another part of me weeped because this new season, this CHANGE, is scary to me. Figuring out a new path to take, a new schedule to navigate makes my head spin.

What life changes are you going through these days?

Maybe your new career is exciting but the learning curve is tough...

Maybe you are wading through the pool we call summer toward the ocean of starting school in the fall...

Maybe you are in a new relationship...

Maybe you are moving...

Maybe you are dealing with health concerns...

Maybe your family dynamics are evolving...

What is it about change that freaks us out so much? For me it is the fact that I cling to familiarity so tightly. A schedule and order to things keeps me in check each day. Yes it is exciting to take a risk and...gasp...go off schedule. Yes it is fun to try new things...sometimes... But for me, the same ol' same ol' is what drive me each day. But, I'm wondering though if this shake up in life, this change, can serve to give me new, refreshed perspective.

Maybe change shakes up our schedule...to make us evaluate what's important

Maybe change shakes up our roles... how we see ourselves in life

Maybe change shakes up our confidence... make us more brave

Maybe change shakes up our dependence on the familiar...to be more dependent on God.

Definitely all these things for me. My personal change in schedule gives me a wealth of time now to write and do ministry...time I didn't have before. My personal change  up in roles...my role as a mom and duty to love and serve my family. My personal change up in confidence...I need to be brave and ready to take on challenges that are sure to come in this new season. My personal foundational shake up...more dependent on God and less dependent on things familiar. I think it is with a fresh perspective beyond the norm and the familiar that we see God at work in exciting ways.

Sometimes these shake ups in life are traumatic. Sometimes they are fun and exhilirating. Sometimes they are painful and tough to handle. Today while I'm tossed around by this life shakeup, I'm reminded to stand firm on this ONE truth...

Therefore, let us all be thankful that we are a part of an unshakable Kingdom and offer to God worship that pleases Him and reflects the awe and reverence we have toward Him, 29 for He is like a fierce fire that consumes everything. {Hebrews 12:28-30 THE VOICE}

Enough said? I'm going to go handle my change now...how about you?

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