Renee Fisher is a spirited speaker, coach, consultant and author, who published her first eight books in under eight years. A self-proclaimed "Dream Defender," Renee is passionate about calling dreams to life in others. A graduate of Biola University, she lives in Houston, TX with her handsome husband and their fur child named Star. Connect with her at ReneeFisher.com.
In Junior High, my parents took me to doctor after doctor and they all agreed--I had hypoglycemia. The solution was to carry around extra snacks or protein with me to stabilize my blood sugar when it dipped. The problem was it dipped often. No matter how much food I ate I was always hungry.
When eating higher amounts of food didn't work--I became even more anxious. I was afraid to eat because I didn't want to get fat. Even as a young girl I knew if I became fat, no boy would ever love me.
Only this time they prescribed Xanax--a little white happy pill that made me feel nothing for a few hours, but left me feeling even more hungry after. I hated that pill! Taking Xanax made me want to commit suicide. Thankfully, my mom forced me to stop taking it almost immediately. Even after I screamed, cursed, and begged her to continue to let me take medication--I knew it wouldn't fix the problem, but I didn't know where else to turn. That is until I learned how to pray. Sounds cliché but it's the truth.
Thank God my mom wasn't afraid to get on her knees and pray with me. She prayed. I prayed. We even asked my pastors to pray over me. With their support I found the strength to start rebuking each lie the enemy would tell me.
"You're too fat." "You're too afraid to go outside." "No boy will ever love you." "Hunger is bad."
One year later the lies stopped. I'd love to say they stayed away, but they didn't. When they returned at least I had God by my side--along with my family, and prayer.
That's when I started journaling. That's when I started asking God to heal me daily from anxiety, and from my desire to stuff my face full of food. God has never removed anxiety from my life nor the desire to overeat, but He has brought me through some incredibly tough crisis situations. It took the courage of a nurse to help me see that I was okay. That being hungry was actually normal--and so was anxiety. I say all of this to encourage you.
There was a time when I gained 100 pounds because of the medication I took for a bad skin rash. There was a time when I ended up in the emergency room because I was having such severe panic attacks.
Until that day--I choose to educate myself, take daily medication for as long as it's recommended by my doctor, and stay connected with God, family, and friends. Whatever it takes for me to get it--being hungry is a good thing!
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline (2 Timothy 1:7, NIV84). Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled (Matthew 5:6, NIV84).
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