OH, Grace

Originally published Tuesday, 06 August 2013.

I am thankful for this verse. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10  And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.  Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.

This verse reminds me of how frail I really am. This verse and the past week of my life! I wrote an entire book proposal on TRUSTING God and then the 10 days after I had presented it and things went well, I was a mess and not even about the book proposal. I was instead questioning everything I wrote. I was questioning if God even loved me. I knew and do know in my head He ADORES me, but it was my heart. It was stuck and I wanted to know WHAT TO DO to get unstuck.

I prayed

I cried

I text my friends for prayer

I went to church

I read my Bible

I praised God

I listened to a million sermons (well not a million but a bunch)

I journaled

I threw a fit

I tried to control everything around me

It was like little things that I usually trust God about were starting to really get to me, I was questioning God, wondering if I needed to get involved. Wondering if God was done blessing me. My stomach started to hurt, I wondered what was wrong with me.

GIRLFRIENDS: can I tell you that I still don’t know exactly what caused it all.

I believe it boiled down too not trusting God. Not believing He loved me and that He was good! I instead was believing people and circumstances around me!

All and all it was the Grace (that IS sufficient) that helped me through. That got me to the other side of the lies, the critical spirit, the accusing spirit, the offended spirit, that I was dealing with in my own flesh! I was believing circumstances to be true, instead of believing God to be TRUE and His word to be TRUTH!

He created the universe and often I forget! He loved me so much He came to earth in human form to rescue me from eternity in HELL, why do I think He doesn’t love me and why do I worry?

He is with me, He is good, and His grace is sufficient, that is all I really need to know!