Originally published Saturday, 10 January 2015.
It’s not pretty. It’s not always whole. It’s often aching. It’s needing help. It can feel so dark.
But, my heart is open to you. It’s open to the work that you want to do. It’s open to your will. It’s open to your desires for my life.
Don’t let me close my heart to you Lord. I will miss you. Don’t let me let you go unwelcomed.
Because you are what makes me.
You are what lifts me.
You are what gives my life a pulse.
When you are teaching me, instructing me and leading me, I am at one with you your heart.
You are a perfect visitor.
You take residence in an awe-inspiring way.
You don’t demand my service.
You don’t look at me with a judging eye.
You don’t wonder why I am not a better welcomer.
Instead, you actually welcome me into your heart. You welcome me into your ways.
I think I am giving – but it is actually YOU who gives.
You are the gracious host, because as I seek you, you let me come closer and closer to your heart, your ways and your safety. As I knock at your door, you welcome my heart to find safe refuge in you. This is where power is held. This is where your glory is found.
You teach me what love is.
To love others before myself.
To open a door to others in need.
To lift another who has fallen down.
To bring truth to others who feel lost.
Let me never shut the door to your love – because you never shut your love to me.
Let all of my heart be ready to welcome all of you – for it is only then that I discover you bring something far greater than a housewarming gift – you bring you. And all of you, is more than enough for all of me – because your grace changes all of me!