Originally published Tuesday, 20 February 2018.
It's a shame I got so angry.
It's a shame I didn't give in to the demands and now, those people are still upset at me.
It's a shame that I handled things all wrong and hurt people's feelings.
It's a shame that I regret it and can't rewrite history.
It's a shame. Or actually, I am a shame. I am a shame of a girl who should be ashamed of myself for how I acted.
This is the line the devil feeds me: “Oh, Kelly, look at you. . . you should be ashamed of yourself.”
And now, look what you've done:
They all hate you.
You are a bad testimony.
You'll never recover.
No one will ever support you.
He's sneaky, that devil.
But I can be sneaky too. I can be. I'm sneaky when I remember: if I've confessed it, God's forgiven it.
At this point, the face of that issue no longer faces me. Jesus' love speaks louder than my history. Yet, I can be sure if there’s a voice still talking, it's the enemy's. And at this point, it will always sound like shame or regret.
But I don't have to live with it. I can tell it to shut up. Here's how. . . I say:
I am not controlled by what I've done, but the Word of Truth and the Spirit of life.
There is no condemnation in Christ Jesus.
There is no perfect person and if that is my standard I will always fall. I can forgive myself.
God is my hiding place, and in Him no harm will touch me.
God knows the intentions of my heart.
The Lord watches over me, because I fear Him. (Ps. 33:18)
The Lord protects me; He is my shield. (Ps. 33:20)
The Lord thwarts any evil schemes coming against me. (Ps. 33:10)
I am not perfect, but the perfect sacrifice of Jesus perfectly covers me and marks me righteous.
I am fully restored in Christ.
And that's how the voice stops talking. You tell it the truth.
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