Kelly Balarie

Dealing with Old Memories

#Contentment

I flew down the hill, free. My bike moved without any exertion. This was supposed to be the fun part. The easy part. The fast-paced glide. But it wasn’t.

My mind flashed back to years ago. The time I got nervous. The time the handlebars shook electricity into my numb hands. The time my mind got scared to death that my bike would flip over on one of the potholes. The time my middle loosened like a noodle in anticipation of what would certainly befall me…

And then, so long ago, I fell.

Anticipating my fall, I practically welcomed it. Anticipating demise, we often, subconsciously, do the exact same.

It’s coming. I’m ru….ined!

Tense, scared and precautious, we prepare to fall. Freaked out, we ready our mind for the worst. Even years later, memories haunt us, repeating the same powerful and engrained lies.

Just consider me. As flew downhill, gone was my moment of enjoyment. Active in my mind was a moment of torment.

The pain of yesterday undoubtedly tries to come to steal the joy of today. Often in a form of a memory seared in our insides. Reminding us of what can never be.

What pain of yesterday steals your joy of today? Your hope? Your peace with God?

In what ways does it hold you back? Torment you? Hurt relationships?

“Come, follow me,” Jesus said. (Mt. 4:19)

How can we follow Jesus when we’re too busy looking back? How can we see where Jesus wants us to step, who he wants us to reach, and what paths he wants us to walk when we are busy filling our mind with the past? When we’re busy asking ourselves why that person did that, where we went wrong, how we could have done better?

“Come, follow me.”

Give up your sore neck that’s always looking back and choose today to look ahead. This doesn’t mean those old memories won’t come, but it does mean you don’t have to indulge your time with them. You don’t have to become consumed with them.

Follow Jesus. A simple gospel: walk how He walks, think how He thinks, love how He loves.

Don’t look back. Jesus covers all that. Just follow Him.

Prayer:

“Do not remember the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I will do a new thing….” Is. 43:18-21

God, we don’t want to be so consumed with old things that we can’t see your new thing. Renew our minds, in you. Renew our strength, in you. Renew our life, in you. Help us to let go of the old, so we can walk into your new. We need you. We hunger for your help. In Jesus’ Name we pray. Amen.

 

Kelly’s new book, Fear Fighting: Awakening Courage to Overcome Your Fears has been called “A must read,” “Breathtakingly honest” and a “Great Toolbox to Overcome Fear.” Read it today.

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Following Through on Hard Decisions

#Contentment

I faced a hard decision. Maybe you’re up against one today. Maybe your trying to decide whether to confess that spending spree to your husband. Or whether to talk to your son about his recent behavior. Or whether to admit you really were wrong and shouldn’t have acted that way.

We all stand up against hard decisions.  Brick walls threatening to topple us, tugging and  harassing us. Words that need spoken nipping at our heels, until we address them.

My particular decision was no fun. I believed God wanted it, but did I? My flesh didn’t. I know that. My flesh felt like taking the easy road of no issues, keeping everyone happy and not rocking the boat.

My flesh stalled making the decision for weeks, rationalizing every reason why I couldn’t do it. But one day, I felt God tug on my heart, “Today is the day, Kelly.”

Essentially, I responded back, “But no one will understand, God.”

“Kelly, since when do people need to understand?”

“"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD.” Isaiah 55:8

“Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.” Gal. 1:10

Did people understand when Noah built an ark? No.
Did they understand when Jesus said He would have to go to the cross and die? No.
How about when Jesus confounded the wise and astounded the religious? No.
Did they understand why God or the angels didn’t save Jesus from that cross? No.

Often, when we move on God’s “right,” people won’t understand. They may even say it’s wrong. Inevitably, at times, we’ll be misunderstood. And even talked about. The thought is painful right?

But Jesus never came to earth to guarantee man’s acceptance. He didn’t come to earth so we’d be fully loved, known, understood and adored by all. He came to earth so we could be accepted into Christ’s family. This is enough.

It’s the reason we can walk by faith, not sight of everything that looks confusing, doubt-filled, rocky, questionable, or uncertain. It’s the reason we’re okay after everything is said and done.

If we act on truth from the place of love, with a heart to love, inspired by Him who is love, in God’s eyes we can’t go wrong. Even if the whole world tells us we’re wrong. Why? Because God sees our heart and He says, “Love never fails.” 1 Cor. 13:8

 

Kelly’s new book, Fear Fighting: Awakening Courage to Overcome Your Fears has been called “A must read,” “Breathtakingly honest” and a “Great Toolbox to Overcome Fear.” Read it today.

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Change Everything: Get Low

#Contentment

“There it is, mommy.”

“Where?”

“There.”

I saw nothing. I bent down to see from his angle. I bent low to see life from the angle of a child. The lower I bent, the more I could see – up.

From this view, I saw it. . . a rainbow.

“There’s not just one, mommy.”

I didn’t think he was right. I know what I saw. But I hunched over, lower and lower.

And there, from his 3-foot something vantage point, looking up, I could see clear as a rainy day. A double-rainbow.

But I had to bend low. I had to bend to the vantage point of a child to make sense of the brilliance he was seeing emerge out of darkness.

Perhaps you do too.

“Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.” Mt. 18:4

What does it look like to take a lowly position?

It looks like:

1. Knowing you don’t know it all.

2. A willingness to bend toward faith in the midst of a storm.

3. A desire to do things differently than you always have.

4. A sense that God has something He wants you to see.

5. An understanding there’s more to life than meets the eye.

6. A discovery of what God can do when you let go of your presumptions.

7. An awareness that your vision could be flawed.

8. An eagerness to see what you never have before.

“How does it happen, mommy?”

“Only Google knows,” I told him.

Only a minute later we discovered rain has the power to project light various ways, producing a double rainbow.

It made me think: Rainy days seen through the lowly eyes of a child see the miraculous.

What might God want to recreate out of your rain, if you only saw it differently? Bend low. What do you see? Stay there. What does God want you to do?

 

Kelly’s new book, Fear Fighting: Awakening Courage to Overcome Your Fears has been called “A must read,” “Breathtakingly honest” and a “Great Toolbox to Overcome Fear.” Read it today.

Discover how to flee from fear and fly in faith through 4 Days to Fearless Challenge.

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