Originally published Thursday, 05 March 2015.
Some days I feel weak. Some days I feel like I don’t quite measure up to who God has called me to be and what God has called me to do. I guess that’s just it: Mom, Missionary, Public Speaker, Cleaner, Hammy, Wife, Accountability Partner, Mentor, or whoever and whatever is on the list today. Perhaps you have felt this way too.
Don't we all feel this way from time to time? There are those days that we feel like we don’t quite measure up. We have seasons where things go great and then we have seasons that remind us how much we need God on an hour by hour basis.
It's only by grace that we can live a life of faith, but it's certainly by God's mercy that we can live well and excel while doing it. For those days when feel like you can't, just remember that seasons of suffering and sorrow remind us that this world is not our home. I hope this helps in some small way.
I finished a long and arduous season of many emotions, plain and simple. It came from everything and hit all at once. Family, writing, outreach, home, parents, emotions, children. All of it, in everything. There was one verse that got me through.
Notice I said "through". I took a page from Paul's testimony through hard times.
"And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus." ~ Philippians 4:19
God sends us through those "desert" seasons and by His grace I have traveled through many of them. I have days where I feel so in tune with God’s Spirit, and then there are those other days when I let fear control my thoughts. When fears assail me, I disengage from God's strength to do this life apart from Him.
Thankfully I am learning to go to God for EVERY need through each and all seasons. I believe that God will and does and has supplied ALL my needs according to His grace and mercy, His glorious riches. No.matter.what day or time or year.
I have also found that my emotions are NOT dependable. Faith isn't about feelings, Faith is about trusting that when I do run to God for everything and anything, all the things, those "all emotions" are feelings I can leave at His feet. I trust Him to get me through all things by what He shows me, be it by the wisdom comes through His Word, His people, or through His voice. I know I can trust Him on those days when I feel like I can't make it through the next thought!
All that being said, I am so thankful for new seasons. For the new way of thinking of God, how He supplies and I don't have to manufacture the good "Christian" answers. The new way of praying with a complete heart of trust, the new way of believing that having this trusting faith pleases my Father. The new way to do life, no matter what circumstances are plaguing me at the moment.
This trust has done a wonder in my life and it has ignited my heart and mind. I am thankful for the "through" abilities of a God who loves us, who is for us, and for reasons that are for His pleasure, work in ways that we can't understand to leave us in wonder of His glorious riches.
When I see His character displayed in my life, I am fulfilled, satisfied, and made whole. My identity and value is in knowing that I am a part of the priesthood of the saints through all the seasons of life. We need the "deserts" to fully appreciate when God showers his blessings.
Thank you Jesus for deserts and grace to get through them but thank you also for the promise of Your holy words into our lives. ~ Amen.
What's a time when God got you through something that you faced?