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She Seeks is a division of Proverbs 31 Ministries with Lysa Terkeurst and Renee Swope. She Seeks is a daily devotional and blog for young Christian women in their 20s who are seeking encouragement and inspiration as they step closer to the heart of God.

Running the Race - She Seeks - Week of June 13

{running the race}

a challenging post from a challenged girl

We have our final weigh in for the Subway Get Fit Challenge tomorrow. [For those of you just tuning in, I have been competing, for the last fifteen weeks, in Nashville's version of Biggest Loser.] And to be honest, I'm not as big of a loser as I wanted to be.

Here's the funny thing - every time I talk about this competition I say the same thing. "It is a lifestyle change, not a numbers game."

Until I'm 12 hours from standing on the scale for the final time on Nashville television.

Then, boy howdy, it's a numbers game for real.

I got home from the gym tonight and took a short, hot shower. I felt like crying and frowning and just getting in bed and never getting out. I'm an emotional mess for a good amount of the time [sorry to my friends who deal with it from me so often], but this degree was unusual.

The numbers game was taking over my mind. I feared not living up to the expectations - from my friends, from the people in the competition, but mainly, from myself.

I kept hearing "finish the race, finish the race" in my mind. So I hopped online to biblegateway.com and searched "finish the race."

And with the first result, those tears that were building during my shower began to pour.

Acts 20:24
"However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me - the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace."

My job has never been to lose a ton of weight. I was not picked for this competition because Jesus plays a numbers game. My job, my goal, is to testify to the gospel of God's grace.

It is by God's grace alone that I have lived a healthy lifestyle for fifteen weeks.
It is by God's grace alone that I am able to stay on an elliptical machine for an hour.
It is by God's grace alone that my heart, my mind, and my spirit are changing.

And yet here I sit. So concerned about a number. Sheesh.

I think I do this a lot in my life -- set up expectations of what "success" looks like, never really taking into consideration that what God calls success may be far different than what I deem as successful.

Maybe tomorrow Jesus just wants me to thank Him on television. Or maybe He just wants me to hug a producer and tell her of His love.

Maybe success is that I didn't quit.

I need to meditate on this. I need to soak in this truth. Between now and tomorrow, when I step on that scale, I need this verse to be living in my heart, pulsing through me like blood.

Because I want to live my life, every season, every moment, to testify to His grace. I want to finish this race, the one that ends tomorrow, well.

And then I'll start a new one. And my only goal will be to finish the race and complete the task that Jesus has given me.

And testify to the gospel of grace.


Acts 20:24 - However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me - the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace.

2 Timothy 4:7 - I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.

Something Else...

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What kind of race are you running today?

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