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Sometimes it is hard to have confidence in God.
It can be hard to believe that God is really working all things out for my good. Especially when the all things involve stuff like cancer.
When I’m falling to sleep at night, and praying that my husband’s next scan will cancer free, it is sometimes hard to believe that God wants what is best for us.
Especially when deep down I want “what’s best for us” to only be interpreted as “cancer free”.
On nights when I question God, when I wonder if God cares, when I ponder if he interprets “best for us” the way I do, I find verses like 2 Timothy 2:13 comfort me.
They remind me that there will be times when I wonder whether God knows what he is doing, and there will be moments when I wonder why we go through hard things, but that through all of it God will never give up on me.
God will never lose confidence in me. (tweet this)
God remains faithful to me even when I do not believe he is.
Faithful is kind of an old fashioned word but I can’t think of better word to ascribe to God
when I’m wondering whether he is worth trusting with all things.
I like that this verse uses the word faithful. I like it because it reminds me that God is trustworthy, dependable and reliable. And that even when I falter – when I stumble over my beliefs – God remains committed, true and constant.
Perhaps this is because so often I think that God is moody, that he changes his behavior based on how he feels. Then I read a verse like this and I’m reminded that his character is more robust than my faith.
My faith doesn’t alter God’s character. Or rather my disbelief doesn’t change who God is. (tweet this)
God is faithful, even when I wonder if I should have confidence in him.
It is right when I remember this that find my faith again, that I find the words to pray with hope again, that I can believe that God is working all things for my good. Even stuff like cancer.
Ponder: Do you ever struggle to put your confidence in God? What helps you to believe that he is faithful and worthy of your trust?
Pray: Lord Jesus, thank you that you are faithful even when I struggle with disbelief. Amen
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