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RE: A life to cherish - 4/21/2006 12:05:08 PM
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Hey everybody. Thanks for all your support. Things have been extremely tough of late, and I haven't known what to do. Still don't.
One thing I forgot to tell you in my last entry is that my doctor thinks that I have fibromyalgia. There's no definitive tests that he can do, but he was talking about how taking smaller amounts of the painkillers I take at more regular times could help me with sleep. I know that that is something that is really out of kilter with me. It would also help with pain management. Fibromyalgia would also explain my constant pain and exhaustion. So, I'm going to try that for a while and see if that helps any. I've been looking online to see if I can find any more information about it. Apparently prozac can help with it, but I've been on that for depression in the past and it didn't work for me. I guess I'll have to try other things.
I have a couple of friends with fibromyalgia. The last one I found out about just before I went to Sydney. I knew that there was a slight possibility, but didn't think that it would turn out that way. I thought that it would just come back that the pain and exhaustion would come back as something in my head. I heard the doctor saying something about fibro something or other, but I didn't catch the last part of it. I wasn't exactly in the best of moods when I saw him. John was there though, and when I asked him again tonight, he's the one who told me that the doctor had talked about me having fibromyalgia.
The last few days I've had a lot of things on my mind. I don't normally watch it, but the other day, I caught the tail end of a Dr Phil show, which was discussing food obsessions. One lady on there was anorexic. It made me start wondering again what my payoffs for my behaviour are, how I can get better as I'm waiting to get into the eating disorders clinic. I've been thinking that even by controlling the number of calories that I have per day, how it's going to help with the underlying causes of the eating disorder. Part of me wonders which parts of my life have led to me having an eating disorder in the first place. So many questions that I have that are unanswered.
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RE: A life to cherish - 4/27/2006 5:34:30 AM
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Today would have been my mother's 72nd birthday. She died almost 8 years ago. Whenever it gets to this date now, I get really sad. I don't know why. It wasn't something that we really celebrated, even when she was alive.
I still miss my mother, even though we weren't close.
I went out with John this morning and we talked about what today was. I couldn't believe that in the middle of the shopping centre, I was fighting back the tears. I was really embarrassed. 
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RE: A life to cherish - 5/1/2006 10:24:00 PM
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Cars. Sometimes they can be a real blessing, and other times they can be a real pain. Our car has been causing us all sorts of problems from the time it was given to us. Thousands of dollars have been spent on the car since we got it, and many people have told us that we should get rid of the car. It's our only source of transport though and we rely on it heavily.
We found out a couple of weeks ago that our rear lights weren't working on the car. We didn't have the money for it, and were praying about how that was going to get fixed. John was at a conference helping out with some of the counselling there and he asked for prayer. People there were telling him that we should put the car in the garage and see if we could borrow a car until the car could be fixed. There's a mechanic at church who we used to see a lot of to fix the car. He has a spare car and we are able to have a loan of it until next Monday. At the conference, the people that John were helping took up a love offering for their ministry. The wife of the couple felt strongly that the $50 that they were given was meant to go to John. So, while we've had the other car, we put ours in to get repaired. When he went to get the car fixed, he'd arranged that he'd put a deposit down and if necessary, pay the rest on Monday. The bill totalled $50.
Another reason we needed to borrow a car is that the other day, John looked at one of the tyres and found that it was bald. This made him check the other tyres, and we found that the others were all bald too! None of us had realised. We tried all sorts of things to get replacement tyres within our budget, which we couldn't do. This morning John got a phone call from the man who heads up the ministry that John is helping out with. One of the men in the ministry is going to pay for the new tyres. John is to drive the car down to church in the morning, which is only a short distance away, and the pastor will have the money from this man to get the tyres. There are several tyre places around the corner from church, so it will be easy to get them. The Lord has provided yet again for us.
We're still praying for a more reliable car. We know that this is just a transitional car. We don't have the finances to buy a new car, but we know that the Lord can provide.
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RE: A life to cherish - 5/4/2006 12:13:40 AM
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Just made an appointment to have surgery next month. I've got a squint and a lazy eye. I've been on a waiting list for years. Finally got a call today to get the procedure done. They can't give me any hospitals close to where I live, so it's going to be at least an hours' drive to the particular hospital they are sending me too. Nothing serious. I have a squint and a lazy eye. I had it corrected when I was a kid, but it's come back again. The squint can be quite noticeable, and the lazy eye most noticeable when I'm tired. These days, that's most of the time. I don't even notice that my eye is doing it as I'm so used to it, but I know that it can put others off. I wasn't going to get it done as the hospital is so far away. Joan and John have talked me into it though. I go to get checked out on the 20th of May, and the surgery, at this stage is scheduled for the 1st of June.
This morning we also found out that we are going to be having a prayer blitz through our house. John had requested one a couple of weeks ago and we found out this morning that we are having one for sure. We've had one before, but felt that we needed another one. If you're not familiar with the concept, people come through your house, praying blessings on it and the occupants. They may give words to edify and encourage. We have a team at church that goes around to people's houses as it's felt needed and do that. John has been part of the team before, as have Joan and I. There have been so many problems in our household, healthwise etc, that we just felt that it is getting beyond a joke. We felt that some prayer backup would be wonderful. Part of me is really nervous as I haven't seen a lot of these people for a long time now, but I know that this is something that needs to be done. I felt the Lord talking to me about it before John and Joan even asked me about it.
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RE: A life to cherish - 5/9/2006 12:29:09 PM
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I've had a lot of things going through my mind. One thing happened this evening that was a reminder. During dinner, Joan asked if I'd like anything else. I half joking said something, and the comment was, "I thought you were trying to lose weight". Well that snapped me back into reality. I finished my last couple of mouthfuls and stopped eating. I was given an appology, but it did make me think. I AM supposed to be losing weight. The less weight I have on me before my surgery, the better. There's been comments in the past about my weight, and I have to realise that it really is a concern for others. It once was a priority for me too to be losing weight. I need to make it that way again. Cut back on my eating, get more exercise. I know it's hard with all the pain that I'm in. A couple of days ago, I was barely out of bed until 3pm because I was so tired and sore. I'm just going to have to put that aside and do it. Being the weight that I am is not healthy. The sooner I truly get that realisation into my head, the better. So, it looks as though I'm back on the weight loss thing again. I'm planning on being out a lot tomorrow and hopefully walking a lot. Hopefully that will help me to use up at least a few calories.
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RE: A life to cherish - 5/11/2006 8:56:35 AM
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My eye surgery has been brought forward. There was a phone call this afternoon to say that the hospital wants to do the surgery next Thursday instead of the 1st of June. I was just getting used to the idea of having the surgery on the 1st, but I guess it's better this way. I know I'll only get more churned up if I have to wait longer.
I'm finding things hard again. I sat down and had a good talk with John and Joan last night. I'm struggling again with all the things that go along with having an eating disorder. I'm having to fight against wanting to spend hours again on the exercise bike. I haven't had the money to get food to hide, but when I do, there's so many thoughts telling me that I should stock up on food and hide it. I know it sounds crazy. That's the nature of things. Things are becoming more black and white again, and I don't know how to stop it. Good foods. Bad foods. My mind swings between the two extremes about things I should be doing and what I shouldn't but want to do. I was going to call the eating disorders clinic, but with surgery coming up so soon, I don't know what would happen. I guess I'll have to give it a little more time and then see if I can do something then. In the meantime, John has asked me if I want the bike removed so that I don't get carried away with it. I don't think I could stop at just a short amount of time on the bike. It's just one of the extremes I'm trying to deal with.
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RE: A life to cherish - 5/11/2006 9:03:36 AM
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I forgot to mention that they've changed the hospital that I'm going to be in. I don't have to travel for over an hour to get to the hospital anymore. They are going to be putting me in the hospital that I was originally told that I would put in. It's only about 30 minutes away. That's a real answer to prayer.
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RE: A life to cherish - 5/15/2006 12:13:08 PM
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Hey everybody. It's been a very long day. Left home just after the crack of dawn to head into the city. There were thunderstorms today and on the way into the city, we even saw a car crash. Some poor person had wrapped their car around a tree.
It took John and I just over 6 hours to see 5 doctors, 3 nurses, I had blood tests, an ECG, several blood tests, filled out multiple forms and do all the other pre-admission things. I get admitted into hospital on Thursday morning, and I have the surgery that afternoon. I'm told that I'll be staying in hospital overnight.
With this surgery, there are some side effects. Nausea, blurry vision, headaches, double vision etc. I know that from experience as I had them when I had this surgery when I was a kid.  I thought it might be better now, but the doctors tell me that it's very common. Rats! They also tell me that because of the problems I've had in the past with anaesthetics etc, I have a 60% chance that I will be experiencing the side effects of the surgery. Yippee. 
Another surprise today. I went in to get my left eye seen to. After many eye tests, it seems that I need both done. One eye moves from side to side, the other, up and down. My right eye is lower than the left. Both eyes will have surgery on them. Instead of taking the hour that I would have needed with the one eye, I'll now need longer as they'll do them both at the same time.
I was told that whoever did the first operation on my eye made a big blunder of it. It's completely wrong. They will have to correct that while they are correcting the muscles in my eyes. I'm really NOT looking forward to this anymore.
If I'm not online for a while after my surgery, it's not because I don't love you any more. It's just that I'm having trouble seeing. I'll be back as soon as I'm able to afterwards though.
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RE: A life to cherish - 5/17/2006 11:56:12 AM
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Hey everybody. Just stopping in quickly before I head straight off to bed after I post this. Just under 10 hours now until I need to be in hospital and I'm feeling really nervous. Going to be a very early start for me in the morning.
Take care and I'll talk to you all when I get back.
John is going to post updates in my thread in Personally For You, if you're interested. It's called A Place To Cherish.
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RE: A life to cherish - 5/22/2006 3:51:35 AM
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Hi everybody. Just letting you all know that I got home on Friday night. I'm still feeling really sore, but I'm hoping that will all go away soon. I'm not seeing particularly well, so if this turns out funny, I do appologise.
I go back to see the surgeon next Monday.
Thankyou to all those of you who've put messages in my thread.
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RE: A life to cherish - 5/29/2006 11:49:18 AM
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I went and saw the surgeon this morning to get my eyes checked out. He's really pleased with their progress. I thought it might have been a bit slow, but apparently it's normal. That was reassuring for me.
Haven't been up to much lately. Had my craft group over for a while this afternoon. That was different, but a lot of fun. I'm not used to just sitting there whilst everybod else is working on their things. I don't even know if I'll be able to do things next time. We'll see though. (No pun intended). I'm hoping so as I'm getting a little bored from not being able to do things I'd like to.
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RE: A life to cherish - 6/4/2006 11:03:21 AM
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Not much to report here. I'm still recuperating from the eye surgery. John and Joan have both come down with colds and it seems that I'm now doing the same.
Tomorrow is a public holiday in my state - Foundation Day. We're all just going to be recuperating.
John and Joan were supposed to go to a wedding today but didn't feel up to going.
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RE: A life to cherish - 6/10/2006 10:48:42 AM
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Lots of things have been going around in my mind of late. Wondering what's really behind some of the things that I'm feeling.
Next Monday, (the 19th), will be my mother's eighth anniversary since she died. When I found out that she was in hospital dying, I found it extremely hard. She had been an abusive alcoholic, and I had borne the brunt of her abuse, as had the rest of my family. When I found out she was dying, all I could think of was that she was my mother, and that she didn't know Jesus. In the weeks that my mother remained alive, one of my sisters in law led her to the Lord. There was comfort in that. There was a part of me that wished that she was a healthier woman, not only physically, but also emotionally, spiritually and in every way.
After I was finally diagnosed with depression in 1993, I was told that I had been experiencing it since I was a child. Everything I'd been through had taken it's toll and I knew it, but didn't know how to express it. Ever since the diagnosis, I have been having counselling on and off, and several times, forgave my parents and all those I needed to forgive. I guess it was just different degrees of forgiveness. I told my parent's that I forgave them, but never received any acknowledgement of what I had said.
Lately, I've been finding that I'm getting a little upset with Joan. Not because she's been doing anything wrong. She does things that normally wouldn't affect me, but for some reason, I'm reacting to things. This is what I'm questioning about myself. I don't know whether it's a case of frustration due to not being able to do anything because of the eye surgery or not feeling well, or whether there is some unresolved anger there from my mother and the things that happened throughout my life. By no means would I ever do anything to hurt Joan. That is not even an option. If it's due to frustration over not being able to see properly, then it should hopefully resolve itself very soon. If not, then it will probably mean going back to counselling. I don't consciously feel angry at anybody, including my mother. I don't even know if that's behind it all. I just thought that with it being this time of the year, it could be a possibility. Anyway, just a few thoughts.
[Editted to fix the date].
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RE: A life to cherish - 6/13/2006 2:52:45 AM
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I went to see the eye surgeon this morning. I talked to him about the blurriness that I'm experiencing in my right eye. (It's been so bad that I'm pretty much looking at everything with my right eye closed). He said that blurriness is normal after surgery. I sure hope that it goes away soon as I'm finding it really hard. Anyway, he's really happy with my progress and doesn't want to see me again for another month.
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RE: A life to cherish - 6/19/2006 1:14:20 AM
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Today is the 8th anniversary of my mother's passing. I've found the day really hard so far.
Sleep is something that is alluding me these days, except at the wrong times. My sleep patterns are more all over the place than usual.
I'm really looking forward to being well again. Joan and I have relapsed back into being sick again with the flu and associated stomach bug. I'm going to try and get some more rest today in the hopes that I'll be better soon.
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RE: A life to cherish - 6/24/2006 12:19:49 AM
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Not much going on here. Either I'm sleeping, sick, we've got visitors over (and I try to leave them to Joan and John so people don't end up with my bugs), or I'm out for short jaunts to do errands.
I know that it's early in the year, but I've already made a start on Christmas gifts. I don't want to have a huge fuss at the end of the year like I normally do. It just leaves me frazzled, and the money situation gets rather interesting.
John has a job interview on Monday morning our time. It's to do nightfill, restocking shelves in one of the local supermarkets. He's wanting night time work so that he can continue to do ministry during the days, like he's currently doing. Prayer for that would be really appreciated.
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RE: A life to cherish - 6/27/2006 1:08:50 AM
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Just a quick update on John. He called the office today and he got the job. It's for 2 nights a week, just a couple of hours a night at this stage. He has a whole pile of procedures to learn which will take him 6 hours, but at least he gets paid for that. Hopefully he starts next week.
I had my craft group over yesterday, and for the first time in ages, had a full turn out. It was good to see everybody. Normally we've got people away for other commitments, or as has been the last several times, people have been away on vacation.
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RE: A life to cherish - 6/28/2006 12:02:48 PM
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This coming Sunday, the 2nd, would have been my Dad's 78th birthday. He passed away a week after his 72nd birthday. It was the one year that I didn't get around to sending him a birthday card.
We don't get many concerts here in Perth, particularly any that I'd actually like to see. I heard that the Young Divas were coming our way and I really wanted to hear them. They are 4 female finalists from our Australian Idol over the last couple of years. They are fronting a group that I like. Westlife. Some people might not like them, but I really don't mind them. After doing some sums, I decided to try and make it for Joan and I. She likes the Divas and likes Westlife too. I was going to try and get a ticket for John to come too so that he could drive and not have to come back and get us as Joan doesn't like driving at night. She asked a friend of ours if she'd like to come and it seems that she would. Three of us going. Then Joan talked to another friend of ours and told her we were going to Westlife and she's thinking about coming too. I haven't been to a concert in so many years that it's embarrassing. So there could be four of us heading off to the concert in September.
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RE: A life to cherish - 6/30/2006 12:05:56 PM
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As I mentioned in my previous post, my dad's birthday is coming up this Sunday. I really miss him, even dispite him not knowing who I was in the end. He had Alzheimers and forgot he even had a daughter.
A couple of days ago, I saw a new person to Crosswalk. I was excited because she comes from the same city as me. As a city of around a million people, I thought I'd see if she lives anywhere near me. It seems that she lives a few suburbs from me. I've invited her to come to the craft group I run. I'm excited to meet somebody from Crosswalk.
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RE: A life to cherish - 7/3/2006 11:27:28 AM
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I don't normally examine my dreams and nightmares, but I found myself doing that today with the ones I had last night and earlier this morning. I won't go into details, but in just reflecting a little bit today, I've come to the conclusion that my conscious is trying to work out and process what's going on with me at the moment. Things have been very tough for me for a long time now, for a lot of reasons. I've shared a couple of things here, but I tend not to talk much more about what's happening with me. Lots of others are going through things too, often worse than me and I feel that they are the ones who need prayer more.
What I've processed from my dreams and nightmares has been that right now, I'm feeling very vulnerable, very exposed. Last night I told John and Joan that part of me feels guilty on my dad's birthday because the year that he died, I didn't send him a birthday card. Why not? Well, my dad had alzheimer's disease, and I just figured that he wouldn't remember me anyway. The last time I talked to him on the phone, he kept asking who I was. I just thought it was because his hearing was so bad. Later on, I came to realise that he'd forgotten that he even had a daughter. He didn't know who my oldest brother was either when he occasionally went to visit him with our other brother. He thought he was a friend of our youngest brother. Thinking back, I remember thinking, "Why bother? He won't remember me". Right now, that's one of the things that are tearing me apart. It seems like such a callous thing to say, do. Despite everything, he was still my father, and it would have been good to know that somebody out there loved him and was thinking about him. John and Joan are telling me that I need to forgive myself. I really struggle with that. At this stage, I don't know that I ever will. To me, it's like I couldn't care less about him. He may not have known, but he was my dad.
I'm feeling very exposed, vulnerable. I feel like so many things are being seen about me. In my dreams and reality, I feel as though I'm unravelling. I'm out of control of what's going on in my surroundings and myself. In my dreams/nightmares, embarrassing things were happening to me. I feel like in the vulnerability, unravelling and all that is going on, there is such an embarrassment going on. Others may not think twice about what's going on with me, but I do. For example, in talking to John about dad last night, I was so teary. John wouldn't have thought anything of it, but I was really embarrassed. I wanted to run and hide away somewhere. In my dreams, all these things were happening in public. They were so obvious. I feel as though people around me are seeing things that are really obvious about me too. That added to the embarrassment. There's very few people I've talked ot about what's going on with me. I'm only just starting to talk to John and Joan about a few issues. I know God sometimes gives things to pray for people, whether they know the situation or not. I don't know. Maybe He's already given you something to pray for me.
Maybe this didn't make sense. It probably sounds as though I'm rambling. If you are prompted to pray, then I'd really appreciate it. If not, that's ok too. Thanks for listening.
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RE: A life to cherish - 7/9/2006 11:27:02 AM
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Today is the anniversary of my dad's death. It's been a quiet day. I've been a bit teary here and there.
Joan is slowly feeling better. She's going to see how she's going before deciding where she'll be tomorrow afternoon. She certainly looks and sounds a lot better.
Tomorrow afternoon is craft group. The woman that I met online a couple of weeks ago from Crosswalk will be coming along to the craft group. I'm so excited to finally meet somebody from Crosswalk. Normally I hear so many of those of you in the US meeting up with fellow Crosswalkers and I've been wishing that that was me too. Now I get my own meeting. I'm really looking forward to it. The group will be able to teach her a whole pile of new things.
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RE: A life to cherish - 7/15/2006 12:00:52 PM
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It's been a while, so I thought I'd better drop in quickly.
The Crosswalk lady didn't show at the craft group. I was disappointed, but it's ok.
I've been fighting off a number of bugs, all at the same time. Still have a cold, but I'm not feeling as bad as I have in recent times. Joan is improving, but won't be making it to church in the morning. I'm going to see how well I do in the morning, and may go to church if I feel up to it.
I had my surgeon's appointment. He's pleased with me. I don't have to go back and see him for another 3 months. The blurriness is still normal. The sutures on my eyes have dissolved. The double vision, apparently is my brain trying to readjust after the surgery. I sure hope it readjusts quickly as I don't find it very easy.
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RE: A life to cherish - 7/24/2006 11:16:04 AM
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Didn't realise how long it had been since I was here last.
It's been an eventful time in some ways for us.
A week ago, in the early hours of the morning, we had to call an ambulance for John who was experiencing heart palpatations etc. By the time the ambulance arrived, he was back to normal, but we know that his problem was caused by stress. He's been to the doctor today, again not feeling well. The doctor sent him for some tests, but again, he says that the problem is caused by stress. Joan has been sick for about 2 months straight now, and I'm also sick with an upper respiratory tract infection with secondaries, a virus and infected ears. I guess that hasn't been helping John's stress levels. At the same time, he's going to be starting a job very soon and I know that that is causing him some concern. There are other things too. Joan and I are trying to take as much stress off him as we can, but there's only so much that we can do. If you feel led to, any prayers for him would be really appreciated.
I went to church for the first time in ages yesterday morning. A couple of the looks I got from people there were funny. So shocked to see me again. Many people wondered where Joan was. She had hoped to come to church yesterday, but just needs a few more days to be properly ok, I think. Hopefully she'll be there next week. The last time I was in church, I just wanted to flee from church. I didn't feel the least bit comfortable there. I think part of it was embarrassment over some things that happened there last year. At a conference I was at, God chose to put His finger on some really personal things that I wasn't handling very well at the time, and I felt extremely vulnerable and embarrassed in front of the church. They probably didn't think that much of it, but me being me... That's not the entire reason I'd felt so uncomfortable in being at church. I just needed some time to myself to try and wrap my head around some things. I'm still a long way off, but I actually felt a lot more comfortable being at church yesterday. I was quite surprised. Still came home relatively early after church, but it was more to see how Joan was doing than running out in sheer terror like I did last time.
I had my craft group today. One of the ladies couldn't come as she is going into hospital and needed to go to a pre-admission thing. Another, (a new lady) had to take her mother in law to a doctor. She'll be here next time, barring any mishaps.
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RE: A life to cherish - 7/29/2006 10:56:24 AM
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cherish405
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Sickness is still in the house. Joan and I won't be going to church in the morning as we had hoped. It's going to be way too cold for us. Joan has been having a bad reaction to her antibiotics.
As for me, I went to the doctor yesterday. I don't need any more antibiotics. (I used the last of them today). My throat is red raw, but that is the remaining infection from the virus that I still have from before. My ears are doing a bit better. I've developed pain in my jaws and neck. The pain in my neck is from my throat. The pain in my jaws and some of the pain in my ears are something the doctor told me to raise with the dentist. He thinks that my jaws are out of alignment. Don't know how they can deal with that.
I've been waking up in a sweat, so I'm pretty sure I have a temperature. I haven't been outside, even to see Bailey today. I'm feeling really guilty that I haven't been out to see him. I know that he loves spending time with me, and I sure love spending time with him.
We're finally getting some rain, which is good for the dams. Our gardens aren't complaining either. I just wish that it had come sooner and reached the farming communities before now. They've lost billions of dollars already this year in crops due to the drought.
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RE: A life to cherish - 8/5/2006 10:47:05 AM
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