Lindsay Morgan is a native of Ohio who moved south 7 years ago where she met Jesus head on at age 31. Ever since then, she has been fascinated by His tangible presence and real love. Her writings usually include the grace, the struggle and the expectant heart of a moment by moment surrender to the God who created the Universe! Since recently moving to Los Angeles, California she continues on the journey step by step (sometimes wobbly) letting God write the story of her life. Find more at www.PuttingthePencilDown.com.
Do you ever ask yourself WHY you really do something? As in “have a heart to heart with yourself”…. Digging deep down within and just being honest with you, on a few things?
I think we often, WAIT, maybe I should speak for myself here, I think I often assume the best about myself, my intentions and my reason for doing what I do or thinking what I think……
I found myself here just the other night!
It all began with innocent comparison in my mind, Note: comparison is NEVER innocent! In my mind I was comparing myself to others when it came to a certain subject.
Problem #1: I didn’t catch myself here, in this unwise place of comparison
Which led to Problem #2: I began to find myself comfortable in the Judgment Seat of Christ, judging not only myself but the other people I was comparing myself too.
Which led to Problem #3: I started to condemn myself and let guilt overtake me (not for the comparison. See I had not even realized Problem #1 yet, I had no idea where the “problem” first started) I was condemning myself for not doing what others were doing.
Which honestly led to Problem #4: trying to prove myself to those I was comparing myself too and little did “these people” even know……
………Because it was all in my MIND!
I basically committed 4 sins….in a prettttttttttty short amount of time……
2. Judgment of myself
3. Judgment of others
4. Good old fashion pride….
Whoa, whoa, whoa and whoa……
To say I realized in that moment what true grace was all about, is an understatement, I about fell off my chair when I started to write it out on paper (which is often how I work through thoughts swirling around in my brain) and realized how this simple (seemingly innocent thought) turned into a string of SIN, WOW. All I can say is thank you to God for sending His son Jesus to die on a cross for my sins, past, present and future, not because I am even close to perfect, but because of how imperfect I amEVEN when I am “TRYING” my best…
Feel free to write out your “swirlings” (swirling= thoughts in your head) below!