Jennifer Kostick– Jennifer has been married for twenty-three years to her high school sweetheart, Paul. She is the mother of three children, Paul IV (22), Samuel (6), and Grace (6). She also has six babies residing in heaven. It is those six tiny souls who have propelled her into women’s ministry. She is a conference speaker and author of the book Nothing to Hold but Hope (one woman's journey through miscarriage, stillbirth, and infertility). Jennifer blogs at www.Jenniferkostick.com and is passionate about encouraging women through a godly message of mercy and hope.
Oh, friend, It’s been quite a day so far and it’s only 2:53pm on Tuesday. I don’t know what else is going to happen, but if it’s anything like my morning then someone hold me!
Here’s a quick rundown…
I had to drag myself out of bed at 7:15 this morning. We usually wake up around 6:55; the twins catch the school bus at 7:39. Need I say more? I think I may have taken them to the bus stop with my pajamas on and my hair sticking straight up in the air. Honestly, I can’t even remember. I was that tired.
A little later in the day, I tweeted something to a major author which included a ginormous typo. She must have scanned right over it, because before I caught it she had already retweeted it. I know you’re probably thinking it isn’t a big deal, but to this girl who struggles to do her very best and has issues with proving her intellect, (to herself) well, I felt sick to my stomach.
Note to self: never watch an episode of Parks and Rec while tweeting!
Under normal circumstances I would have grabbed a bag of chocolate and ran for cover, but I’m trying to get fit. Again.
Instead of my beloved M&M’s, I reached for the lettuce and made a nice big salad. It was very large because even though I want to treat my cholesterol right, I’m also thinking, “Let’s not get crazy here.”
I carried my salad to where I was going to sit but forgot to grab my drink, so I put it down on the arm of the chair. (Do you understand what I’m saying about needing to prove my intellect?) When I returned, I sat down on the chair, knocked the extremely large plate off kilter, and everything flipped over on my lap.
I should mention that my salad was a little out of the ordinary. Whenever I’m trying to eat well, I start each day with a whole head of romaine lettuce, a sliced banana, and a teaspoon (or two. or three. or more.) of peanut butter on top. It sounds crazy but it’s yummy! I should also point out that my mom has been staying with us and is obsessed with keeping up on laundry. I love this. However, she’s not home today, so when she returns later this afternoon, heads straight to the laundry room, and sees the lap area and bottom of my jeans…
I promise, mom, it’s only peanut butter!
There is so much more to this day, but I won’t bore you with it. I think you get the point.
Believe me, I know that in the scheme of life, these are nothing more than inconveniences. I’ve had far worse days. Life changing days. And, yet, I still beat myself up over silly things that make no difference in the long run.
God knows my heart and He knows that a typo in a tweet is not going to affect my writing career. He also knows I make messes, and I’m bound to make more. (Both literally and figuratively.) And He loves me regardless.
I don’t know what your struggles look like. It’s possible you’re like me and wrestle with how you appear to the rest of the world. Maybe your issues are completely different. But there is something I do know: No matter what you’re facing, there is a God who loves you and wants you. He calls you His own and He knows you by name.
I’m also certain that He doesn’t want any of us to concern ourselves with things that don’t impact eternity. He sees the heart. And I believe He wants us to prepare our hearts so that we might make a difference with His love. The old saying, “Don’t sweat the small stuff.” It’s true.
We have worth because Christ is worthy. No matter how many mistakes we make, we have worth. Searching scripture will tell us how much He loves us. He won’t ever stop.
I also want to say that if you’re worried about large mistakes, He will forgive. As far as the east is from the west His love and forgiveness stretches throughout the universe and touches each of our souls. When you seek Him, you will find Him. He’s always waiting because you are everything He wants!
The purpose He pours into each of us is much greater than we can imagine. We need to work out the big things, laugh at the little things, and just keep going.
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